Hello.

If you had read my previous journal post in June (wow, time flies!) I was excited about an upcoming professional video shoot with the majorly talented Alayna Erhart.

A little recap: Alayna and I met for the first time in January 2020 and we immediately hit it off. We were going to do brand and studio related video before the pandemic hits. Of course, things shifts over the year 2020, I guess a worldwide pandemic does that. My mentality and attitude around what is meaningful to me has also radically changed.

Hello. This post is slightly different than my usual but I am also excited to give this a go.

The past few weeks I’ve been struggling with a personal creative block. To be fair, it has been coming for a little while now. In a month or so - August 2021 - I will be marking 2 whole years of officially freelancing slash running my own studio. Looking back on 2020, considering that I had a full working year through a major pandemic, I’m really grateful that I’m here, still doing my own thing.

This March 2021 marked a whole year in quarantine. Time moves differently in quarantine. Slow and fast in ways that are wholly inconsistent and unpredictable. In the beginning of quarantine, I felt agitated, angry, sad, frustrated, trapped and sometimes all of those feelings at once. Looking back, my agitations came from knowing - deep in my gut - living in the individualistic society like the United States means it will take so much longer to escape self-imposed quarantine we have to do. But that in itself is an oversimplification of what I’ve been feeling brewing underneath my skin for a while now.